So, I've been thinking about what I want to do and why I want to do it and...
I would dearly like to be able to sit, modestly, naked, for my hour.
I'm not an exhibitionist but if this is about me, then a naked me is the most honest, pure, unaffected me there is, and, after a few years of depression, anxiety and very low self-esteem I am delighted to have gained a huge amount of belief in me - and that's something to celebrate.
However... I might go up in my wedding dress instead - it is after all one of the most significant days of my life!!!
My brother had a place on the first day, and hearing him talk about it inspired me to have a look at the website, and whilst there I just happened to click on the 'apply' button - I mean, there wouldn't be a cat in hell's chance of getting a place on the plinth- after all my brother all ready has a place - what would the chances of me getting one too?!
I'm now really excited and nervous and feel a huge weight of responsibility. I'm to represent a cross section of society - in the name of art. It's historical, monumental (literally), epic, awesome.
And I'm only little!
So, since positng this, poor Simon was asked to cover up. That scared me a bit. I had just about convinced myself that going nude was definatly what I wanted to do and then this decision was shaken by the thought of being asked to cover up. How would that affect me, knowing that I had offended someone? I don't want to be controversial (although I accept that a small amount of controvesy is inevitable!), I also don't want to be seen as jumping on a band wagon. If I do this...being naked and all... I do it because I feel comfortable with it.
My current thinking is that if someone complained, if they found my nudity offensive, then, of course, I would cover up. But it wouldn't bother me, after all that is their issue, not mine.




